How It Happened

As you may have figured out from my last post, I'm pregnant! I though I'd tell you about how it happened. When two people love each other very much....wait thats not where I was going with this. You know that part :]. I just wanted to tell you about our journey for the last 10 months. I went off my birth control in Jan 2010. I was at my RA drs appt and she told me that if your arthritis isn't under control, your body can't sustain a pregnancy. Ok, I'm ahead of myself..let me back up. When I was first diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis I was put on a drug called methotrexate. Its a terrible little chemo drug that I hate more then anything. The side effects are terrible but when I was on it I always felt like I didn't have Arthritis at all. It definitely did its job. I went off this med in Aug 2009. You have to be off for atleast 6 months before you can even try to have kids to get it all out of your system. When I went off I wasn't really planning on getting pregnant 6 months later, I was just so sick of this drug I couldn't take it anymore. My arthritis payed the price and it wasn't doing so great. Now, back to where I was. My dr told me if your arthritis is out of control, you'll have trouble getting pregnant or sustaining that pregnancy. Then it hit me in the face like a freaking brick. If I wanted to have kids I needed to now before it got worse and I missed my chance. I went off my birth control that night and thought we'd be pregnant right away. I even cried after the first time without birth control because I was like, we can't take this back. I'm pregnant and am I really ready. Haha, needless to say I was not pregnant and would go several more months thinking I was and would not be. I was so confused on why I received this inspiration to start trying for a child when nothing was happening. Everyone around me was getting pregnant no problem but I sure wasn't. I wasn't upset at them though because everyone has their challenge in life and I didn't know their situation and couldn't judge it at all. It did make me wonder if I would ever be that lucky however.

Well fast forward to a couple of months ago. My arthritis dr always ran a pregnancy test with my other labs I was getting drawn. Just because I was already getting my blood drawn so why not. I got my labs done one morning at my work because it was a fasting lab so I wanted to do it in the morning. Around 11:00am I got a call at my desk phone from my dr. She said "Liz, you're pregnant." I said "No I'm not." She said "Yes, the test came back positive!" I said "I have to call you back." I had a patient at my desk staring at me like I was crazy and I was trying to process this information. I had to redo that girls chart 3 times before I got it right. My head was no where to be found that day. I didn't want to tell David over the phone so I called Kateka. Bless her freaking heart. She was so excited for me and helped me plan the best way to tell David that night. She called David and told him we should all go to dinner and her and her husband had some news to tell us. After Kateka got off work we met up and planned how to tell him. Since we were together already we met the boys at their house and went to Olive Garden. Kateka gave David this little gift bag with the surprise inside. He opened it and found this.Sorry, I don't know how to flip that. Anyways he stared at it for a minute and then looked at me with tears in his eyes and said "Your pregnant?" He never thought it would happen this way for us. He was way more skeptical then I was the whole time we were trying. Since it had been 10 months and nothing was happening he thought we'd have to adopt or do IVF or some other method and that broke his heart. Obviously we all sat at the table like a bunch of boobs and cried for a second before pulling ourselves together.

Since then we've had several ultra sounds and tests to make sure my high risk pregnancy is going well. I've never focused or worked so hard in my life to keep my blood sugars down and under control. I have to work to get this baby here healthy but I can't think of anything I want to do more. I feel extremely blessed that it happened now, when the timing is right. I know the Lord had full control of that even when I felt like maybe he wasn't paying much attention to our situation. I know many others that have tried for longer to get their babies here and I'm grateful for the perspective I have and for the gospel in my life. I always knew in the back of my head I would get my baby the way that was right for me and at the right time.